Passion

Sand is trickling down the hourglass of my 2nd year. Time is running out for exams, for my time at UKEC and most of my dearest friends here in Nottingham. I'm going to miss them dearly. It's funny that when your days are numbered that you start to see everything with a different shade of color. A tint of nostalgia leading to an unknown darkness of possibilities. I know that I'm getting more desensitized in relationships, maybe even progressively looking at them as trivial; something that I have to prevent. What I know I don't want to be, is a cold robot that is concerned with only outcomes. But at the same time that is the safest way to prevent hurt and get things done isn't it?

As things get gradually more critical for your future and the responsibilities that come with it, we tend to lose focus on what is happening around us. So having time on your own is important to recalibrate focus. That's the function of interests, in my opinion, something that lets you smell the roses outside the daily grind and yet has relevance is how you are as a person when you do get the ball rolling again. Perhaps that's why I'm suddenly thinking of reviving my love for skating, surfing, and snowboarding. Looking at how passionate my housemate is at playing the piano makes me want to emulate the skill. Photography has always been something that I was interested in. How it captures moments and stirs countless emotions, nothing that can be conveyed through words.

A few of the things that I'm looking forward to building in my 3rd year apart from truly understanding my course and books that were too long forgotten. These, and writing. Traveling and seeing the world is given. Fostering new relationships while strengthening existing ones should also be a priority. That's a lot on my plate. But basically, it's a year to take a step back and enjoy being a student but also have something to show for it. Onwards and upwards.

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