Anger and Frustration

Paralyzing anger is one thing but a constant pulsating frustration is another. I seem to be experiencing one or the other more and more often. It distracts sometimes but could also be transferred to intense focus. It really does depend on the nature of the source. So many triggers.

Who is really directed to? People around me, God, or the universe conspiring against me. Or does it stem from me? I'm just tired, I probably need sleep. I apologise to my future self in retrospect for sounding grim. I'll try to follow up with a step-by-step to remedy this soon, post exams.

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